How much is too much?
How much is too much to spend on shoes?? What if you really really love them?
*sigh* i love to buy shoes. but i don't buy that many. so maybe i can spend more? ok...it's just rationalizing spending an inappropriate amount. but i can say that i got them on sale. :) i can't wait to wear them. i need an occasion!!! or i guess i can wear them to work. but they aren't menat to be work shoes. i have those too. :)
I aw Gyra again. she has her belly button pierced. don't ask me how i know this. i was thinking that maybe her way of elliptical-ing is natural. i was even going to test it out. but then i saved myself from my own stupidity as i concluded that her way was not natural based on observing every other person not elliptical-ing that way.
My first personal training session is tomorrow. i'm kinda nervous and my body is already sore. i'm pretty weak minded. wish me luck!!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
New Secret Non-Friend.
So...I think my three best friends at work are no longer my friends. well...one...arrowhead was let go. IT guy, the project was nixed so he doesn't come around anymore. Facilities guy...he shows up sometimes, but not as often. hmmm...maybe the novelty of me has worn off.
So I am making a new secret non-friend. but this time...at the gym!! oh yeh. I joined a gym and i think i'm going to join the many masses who will take a shot with a personal trainer. anyhow, before i get to that...i'll tell you about my new secret friend.
She's a secret non-friend b/c she doesn't know she's my non-friend. she's a non-friend b/c i'm kinda too scared to make her a real friend. i spotted her at the gym the other day. She was on an elliptical. the elliptical was one of those that have handles. not the moving handles. anyhow...as i was running on the treadmill....she was elliptical-ing in front of me.
First thing I noticed...she had one of those lower back tattoos. that's cool enough. don't remember what it was. didn't look that closely. I'm sure it was cool. Second thing I noticed. coin slot. yep. you read it right. I kept thinking...isn't that kinda drafty?? don't you realize your crack is showing. but then...that wasn't even the last thing about her. the weirdest part...was the way she was elliptical-ing!! it wasn't a normal natural way of elliptical-ing. Strange. There was something strange about her movement. It was like a gyrating motion. she seemed to swing her pelvis out and around with every stride she took. I kept thinking...is that normal? maybe that's what happens when you elliptical?? but then my sanity came back. I've been on an elliptical. There's NO WAY that your pelvis needs to move like that. and plus...no one else in the gym who uses that same machine moves their pelvis like that.
gross. this is why she is my secret non-friend. her name is Gyra. I saw Gyra yesterday at the gym too. Sans crack but full gyration.
So just to let you know...I've found myself a personal trainer at the gym. I'm thinking...10 sessions. 5 weeks. who know what might happen!! I'll keep you updated! hopefully my fingers won't be too sore to type.
So...I think my three best friends at work are no longer my friends. well...one...arrowhead was let go. IT guy, the project was nixed so he doesn't come around anymore. Facilities guy...he shows up sometimes, but not as often. hmmm...maybe the novelty of me has worn off.
So I am making a new secret non-friend. but this time...at the gym!! oh yeh. I joined a gym and i think i'm going to join the many masses who will take a shot with a personal trainer. anyhow, before i get to that...i'll tell you about my new secret friend.
She's a secret non-friend b/c she doesn't know she's my non-friend. she's a non-friend b/c i'm kinda too scared to make her a real friend. i spotted her at the gym the other day. She was on an elliptical. the elliptical was one of those that have handles. not the moving handles. anyhow...as i was running on the treadmill....she was elliptical-ing in front of me.
First thing I noticed...she had one of those lower back tattoos. that's cool enough. don't remember what it was. didn't look that closely. I'm sure it was cool. Second thing I noticed. coin slot. yep. you read it right. I kept thinking...isn't that kinda drafty?? don't you realize your crack is showing. but then...that wasn't even the last thing about her. the weirdest part...was the way she was elliptical-ing!! it wasn't a normal natural way of elliptical-ing. Strange. There was something strange about her movement. It was like a gyrating motion. she seemed to swing her pelvis out and around with every stride she took. I kept thinking...is that normal? maybe that's what happens when you elliptical?? but then my sanity came back. I've been on an elliptical. There's NO WAY that your pelvis needs to move like that. and plus...no one else in the gym who uses that same machine moves their pelvis like that.
gross. this is why she is my secret non-friend. her name is Gyra. I saw Gyra yesterday at the gym too. Sans crack but full gyration.
So just to let you know...I've found myself a personal trainer at the gym. I'm thinking...10 sessions. 5 weeks. who know what might happen!! I'll keep you updated! hopefully my fingers won't be too sore to type.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Oh Man.
Sorry. Has it been that long? wow. it's almost like nothing has been happening in my life to warrant updating the blog. but i suppose I can always find something to ramble on about.
since my life is a lot work i guess i can give an update about that. let's see....arrowhead is gone. i think i said that already. i tried calling his cell phone. but i think it was the company cell phone. sure, there are other ways to get in touch with him in this digital age. but now.....too much time has passed. sad. i'm not so good with the personal skills in the workplace.
i sometime worry about job security. but today...i think i have a fair basis to believe that there will be enough work to go around for me. if i know how to do it. one of my colleagues i having a baby!! yeah!! well...lots of my colleague are. but this one in particular is in my same group. so if i can learn what she does, then perhaps i can cover for her while she is gone. hmm...let's see...learn what i'm supposed to be doing AND what someone else has been doing. looks like i need to turn the dial to 11. it's kind of exhilarating to think ahead for the next year and to want to push myself to doing more, learning faster and tackling the bull by its horns!! yee-haw!!!
but then it's also nice to think about vacationing in hawaii.
hmm..my life is sort of boring. and i think we have to move. to me it's just wrong to know that we now have to pay $300 more to live in the same apartment. *sigh* time to pack up!
Sorry. Has it been that long? wow. it's almost like nothing has been happening in my life to warrant updating the blog. but i suppose I can always find something to ramble on about.
since my life is a lot work i guess i can give an update about that. let's see....arrowhead is gone. i think i said that already. i tried calling his cell phone. but i think it was the company cell phone. sure, there are other ways to get in touch with him in this digital age. but now.....too much time has passed. sad. i'm not so good with the personal skills in the workplace.
i sometime worry about job security. but today...i think i have a fair basis to believe that there will be enough work to go around for me. if i know how to do it. one of my colleagues i having a baby!! yeah!! well...lots of my colleague are. but this one in particular is in my same group. so if i can learn what she does, then perhaps i can cover for her while she is gone. hmm...let's see...learn what i'm supposed to be doing AND what someone else has been doing. looks like i need to turn the dial to 11. it's kind of exhilarating to think ahead for the next year and to want to push myself to doing more, learning faster and tackling the bull by its horns!! yee-haw!!!
but then it's also nice to think about vacationing in hawaii.
hmm..my life is sort of boring. and i think we have to move. to me it's just wrong to know that we now have to pay $300 more to live in the same apartment. *sigh* time to pack up!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Business in the front...
So it dawned on me (even though vince says it to me all the time) that I tend not to think beyond what is in front of me. What?! I know. How can that be?! But I have finally admitted that I do not think about the business of working in a corporation. The politics...the strategy...the planning. All the stuff that goes on all the time, other than the day to day job you are doing. I mean, people are posturing, setting up, being all tricky. And there I am la-di-da-di-da-ing in my little cube. I pay far too much attention to my actual job than to working. Strange I know. I wish I was a just out of college person. Give me a dose of real life experience please.
So...from now on, there will be a little bit of the "business in the front" thought going on. planning for my career path. Reading between the lines. And of course, keeping up with the day to day. *sigh* working is now harder.
So it dawned on me (even though vince says it to me all the time) that I tend not to think beyond what is in front of me. What?! I know. How can that be?! But I have finally admitted that I do not think about the business of working in a corporation. The politics...the strategy...the planning. All the stuff that goes on all the time, other than the day to day job you are doing. I mean, people are posturing, setting up, being all tricky. And there I am la-di-da-di-da-ing in my little cube. I pay far too much attention to my actual job than to working. Strange I know. I wish I was a just out of college person. Give me a dose of real life experience please.
So...from now on, there will be a little bit of the "business in the front" thought going on. planning for my career path. Reading between the lines. And of course, keeping up with the day to day. *sigh* working is now harder.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Happy post Thanksgiving!
Spent Thanksgiving in Vegas with the parentals (Lin) and brother Greg. Interesting. My first holiday in Vegas. We arrive Tuesday night and planned to leave Friday so as to avoid the super expensive hotel pricing.
Fun times. Vegas was super empty when we arrived. Seemed quite surreal. And I actually liked it! not crowds. No lines. awesome!! but yes...not as much energy.
Didn't do much. i have to admit that my "vegas vacationing" style has altered from my youth. Gone are the times of hotel/club hopping, loose gambling and late night into early morning drinking (wait! did those times ever happen?). Sign me up for the one stop shop. nice hotel, gambling/spa downstairs, great club and shopping inside. we spent a lot of time walking around to our destination and not as much time at the destination.
We went to visit the Wynn hotel. The buffet was really great! great tasting. good times for thanskgiving dinner. but other than that, the hotel was a bit of a mystery for me. Sure it was new and nice...but i had trouble figuring out the overall theme of the hotel. I'd definitely go there to eat...but my hotel of choice is still Bellagio. oh...the wonderful soothing fountain show. and the beautiful conservatory and gallery. Oh.. and you can't beat the celebrity (poker) sightings. Gus Hansen sure seems taller on tv. Johnny Chan...looks exactly the same in person and on tv.
it's good to be home.
Spent Thanksgiving in Vegas with the parentals (Lin) and brother Greg. Interesting. My first holiday in Vegas. We arrive Tuesday night and planned to leave Friday so as to avoid the super expensive hotel pricing.
Fun times. Vegas was super empty when we arrived. Seemed quite surreal. And I actually liked it! not crowds. No lines. awesome!! but yes...not as much energy.
Didn't do much. i have to admit that my "vegas vacationing" style has altered from my youth. Gone are the times of hotel/club hopping, loose gambling and late night into early morning drinking (wait! did those times ever happen?). Sign me up for the one stop shop. nice hotel, gambling/spa downstairs, great club and shopping inside. we spent a lot of time walking around to our destination and not as much time at the destination.
We went to visit the Wynn hotel. The buffet was really great! great tasting. good times for thanskgiving dinner. but other than that, the hotel was a bit of a mystery for me. Sure it was new and nice...but i had trouble figuring out the overall theme of the hotel. I'd definitely go there to eat...but my hotel of choice is still Bellagio. oh...the wonderful soothing fountain show. and the beautiful conservatory and gallery. Oh.. and you can't beat the celebrity (poker) sightings. Gus Hansen sure seems taller on tv. Johnny Chan...looks exactly the same in person and on tv.
it's good to be home.
Monday, November 12, 2007
bah bah baaaaahhhhhh!
after sometime now...Arrowhead is gone.
:(
it was actually sad. He is no longer working with me. I thought things were getting better. But apparently I was incorrect. I hadn't had much interaction with him since my last post. but it was seemingly just because there was just no project to work on together. But I guess I was wrong.
So it's sad because I thought there was more I could do. Or at least more effort that I could have tried. Maybe I could have talked to him more directly. Maybe I could have been more compassionate. Either way, the saga is over. I know now (thanks to Vince!) that there could have been more that I could have said or done. Now that there is no more time to do anything. I do wish Arrowhead well. Really. I do.
after sometime now...Arrowhead is gone.
:(
it was actually sad. He is no longer working with me. I thought things were getting better. But apparently I was incorrect. I hadn't had much interaction with him since my last post. but it was seemingly just because there was just no project to work on together. But I guess I was wrong.
So it's sad because I thought there was more I could do. Or at least more effort that I could have tried. Maybe I could have talked to him more directly. Maybe I could have been more compassionate. Either way, the saga is over. I know now (thanks to Vince!) that there could have been more that I could have said or done. Now that there is no more time to do anything. I do wish Arrowhead well. Really. I do.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Arrowhead update:
So...after my talk with Arrowhead. I was pretty optimistic. and then i got a message saying people in his group were seeing improvement. so i was even more optimistic!!
*sigh* alas...i fear that i am wrong yet again.
thought i told him, in no uncertain terms: "I need you to do _____." "I have been expecting ____ from you, is that not correct? Should I not be expecting ____ from you?" (please forgive the blanks. I'm trying to maintain some respect for Arrowhead)
Lo and behold...not so much than 2 weeks passes that Arrowhead is back to his same old pattern. He asks me to do ____. He asks my colleagues to do _____. i don't get it! does he not want to do it because he doesn't know how? if so, then say so and then we can help or go from there. everything seems to point to he does not choose to do ____. whether it is b/c he doesn't know how or doesn't want to, he just chooses not to. *sigh* what are going to do with him??
my colleague met him. and i try not to think it's my influence, but she thinking he's creepy. i don't think he's creepy. i just think he's a bit odd.
anyhow, i haven't seen improvement. i haven't seen anything. so if seeing nothing = improvement...then there it is!! ok. sorry. i just think that when people expect to see something of him, he just doesn't show anything so it looks like improvement b/c it's not anything else. i have come to the point where i have to actively jot down notes of our interactions and how I see his interactions so that I can think about whether there is improvement. *sigh* that was not a part of my job description.
one thing that bugged...we are working on this project and for the longest time it was the kind that "should be done as soon as possible." somehow, it turned into "should get done before the end of September." to that end, Arrowhead was calling all these meetings and making a big uproar about getting people together and getting things done. when it wasn't looking to be done by then, i thought, what happened in the last two weeks that brought to this "hair on fire situation" and so I Arrowhead why the end of September deadline as opposed to as soon as possible. of course, and this is what bugged...there was no reason for the end of September deadline. at least no reason that Arrowhead shared with me. so why the push on everyone including me, my colleagues, my managers, and other people's managers?
then later i learned that Arrowhead might be working on some sort of quota system.
i'm not liking the slick things that i learn about Arrowhead. he says one thing. but there's a whole story behind what he says that he doesn't let people know. tricky slicky.
So...after my talk with Arrowhead. I was pretty optimistic. and then i got a message saying people in his group were seeing improvement. so i was even more optimistic!!
*sigh* alas...i fear that i am wrong yet again.
thought i told him, in no uncertain terms: "I need you to do _____." "I have been expecting ____ from you, is that not correct? Should I not be expecting ____ from you?" (please forgive the blanks. I'm trying to maintain some respect for Arrowhead)
Lo and behold...not so much than 2 weeks passes that Arrowhead is back to his same old pattern. He asks me to do ____. He asks my colleagues to do _____. i don't get it! does he not want to do it because he doesn't know how? if so, then say so and then we can help or go from there. everything seems to point to he does not choose to do ____. whether it is b/c he doesn't know how or doesn't want to, he just chooses not to. *sigh* what are going to do with him??
my colleague met him. and i try not to think it's my influence, but she thinking he's creepy. i don't think he's creepy. i just think he's a bit odd.
anyhow, i haven't seen improvement. i haven't seen anything. so if seeing nothing = improvement...then there it is!! ok. sorry. i just think that when people expect to see something of him, he just doesn't show anything so it looks like improvement b/c it's not anything else. i have come to the point where i have to actively jot down notes of our interactions and how I see his interactions so that I can think about whether there is improvement. *sigh* that was not a part of my job description.
one thing that bugged...we are working on this project and for the longest time it was the kind that "should be done as soon as possible." somehow, it turned into "should get done before the end of September." to that end, Arrowhead was calling all these meetings and making a big uproar about getting people together and getting things done. when it wasn't looking to be done by then, i thought, what happened in the last two weeks that brought to this "hair on fire situation" and so I Arrowhead why the end of September deadline as opposed to as soon as possible. of course, and this is what bugged...there was no reason for the end of September deadline. at least no reason that Arrowhead shared with me. so why the push on everyone including me, my colleagues, my managers, and other people's managers?
then later i learned that Arrowhead might be working on some sort of quota system.
i'm not liking the slick things that i learn about Arrowhead. he says one thing. but there's a whole story behind what he says that he doesn't let people know. tricky slicky.
ok! It's been too long since I've written. Lots and lots have happened.
my friends anne and john had baby #2!! yea!! congrats. I can't wait to see them and little new max.
vince got to go to NY for work. he does not heart NY. but i think that may be because it was work. i for sure heart NY!!! even though i haven't been there lately. seems like it will take a small fortune to go there are really enjoy the things of NY.
So while vince was in NY. i took an impromptu trip down to LA. fun! i seriously kept thinking "I will not drive down to LA like a madwoman. I am in no rush. I will not drive down to LA like a madwoman." well. didn't work. once i hit the 5 freeway...helllllooooo madwoman. i can't help it. so then on the way back up...I kept reminding myself: "I will not drive like a madwoman back to the Bay Area." of course. my wishful thinking never prevails. I think I must convince myself next time that i HAVE to be safer. and be nicer to my little car.
LA was fun! got to see my family: mom, dad, bro, sis-in-law, nephew, niece, and little nephew. I hadn't seen little nephew in a while. cute as a baby could be. little smileys. apparently equipped with a death grip. my friend tina brought her little guy over and though he is about 1 month younger, got an early lesson of older bullies. somehow mason (my little nephew) and bryson (tina's son) got to holding hands. and then a few second later, brsyon starts crying! nothing changed. no one changed positions. mason was just holding his hand. with his death grip. sorry bryson!!!
fun part was watching a gazillion little kids play soccer. soo funny. some little kids were actually pretty skillful. but for the most part. it was a group of 8 little boys trying to kick the ball in a certain direction.
other things...hmmm...to recap...dinner with friends, wedding and work. doesn't seem like a lot. but it somehow jam packed our last two weekends! this weekend...shopping! no luck. and relaxing. lots of luck.
tune in next week as vince and i meet up and spend the day with our very own personal shopper!! should i be scared that i told her I'm looking for a new wardrobe and i'm pretty open? yikes. maybe just my wallet should be scared!
my friends anne and john had baby #2!! yea!! congrats. I can't wait to see them and little new max.
vince got to go to NY for work. he does not heart NY. but i think that may be because it was work. i for sure heart NY!!! even though i haven't been there lately. seems like it will take a small fortune to go there are really enjoy the things of NY.
So while vince was in NY. i took an impromptu trip down to LA. fun! i seriously kept thinking "I will not drive down to LA like a madwoman. I am in no rush. I will not drive down to LA like a madwoman." well. didn't work. once i hit the 5 freeway...helllllooooo madwoman. i can't help it. so then on the way back up...I kept reminding myself: "I will not drive like a madwoman back to the Bay Area." of course. my wishful thinking never prevails. I think I must convince myself next time that i HAVE to be safer. and be nicer to my little car.
LA was fun! got to see my family: mom, dad, bro, sis-in-law, nephew, niece, and little nephew. I hadn't seen little nephew in a while. cute as a baby could be. little smileys. apparently equipped with a death grip. my friend tina brought her little guy over and though he is about 1 month younger, got an early lesson of older bullies. somehow mason (my little nephew) and bryson (tina's son) got to holding hands. and then a few second later, brsyon starts crying! nothing changed. no one changed positions. mason was just holding his hand. with his death grip. sorry bryson!!!
fun part was watching a gazillion little kids play soccer. soo funny. some little kids were actually pretty skillful. but for the most part. it was a group of 8 little boys trying to kick the ball in a certain direction.
other things...hmmm...to recap...dinner with friends, wedding and work. doesn't seem like a lot. but it somehow jam packed our last two weekends! this weekend...shopping! no luck. and relaxing. lots of luck.
tune in next week as vince and i meet up and spend the day with our very own personal shopper!! should i be scared that i told her I'm looking for a new wardrobe and i'm pretty open? yikes. maybe just my wallet should be scared!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Work work work...
Seems like these days all i do is work. Not that I'm complaining. Just an observation. Get up. get ready for work. go to work. go eat dinner, maybe go work out. then go home and log in and do more work. then go to sleep. geez. I hope I get a raise. and i don't think a pda for work will help the cause either.
So I had another talk with Arrowhead. I think this one is the winner! I tried to be very clear and say things like: "i don't think we are on the same page as to what it is we expect out of each other." and "I expect you to do this, is that wrong, should I not expect that? do you not know that i expect that?" and then even went as far as to say "I want to see this from you and I haven't been seeing it." of course, i think arrowhead got a little defensive. but all in all it was a fine conversation and I'm hopeful things will change. Not withstanding the several people before me who were probably not as nice about it and much more direct who tried to talk to him about the very same thing, and things have yet to change. *sigh* why do i think i have the magic touch?
but i'm forever hopeful.
fall is coming. the weather is colder and much more windy.
Seems like these days all i do is work. Not that I'm complaining. Just an observation. Get up. get ready for work. go to work. go eat dinner, maybe go work out. then go home and log in and do more work. then go to sleep. geez. I hope I get a raise. and i don't think a pda for work will help the cause either.
So I had another talk with Arrowhead. I think this one is the winner! I tried to be very clear and say things like: "i don't think we are on the same page as to what it is we expect out of each other." and "I expect you to do this, is that wrong, should I not expect that? do you not know that i expect that?" and then even went as far as to say "I want to see this from you and I haven't been seeing it." of course, i think arrowhead got a little defensive. but all in all it was a fine conversation and I'm hopeful things will change. Not withstanding the several people before me who were probably not as nice about it and much more direct who tried to talk to him about the very same thing, and things have yet to change. *sigh* why do i think i have the magic touch?
but i'm forever hopeful.
fall is coming. the weather is colder and much more windy.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Happy post-Labor Day weekend!Silly me for thinking during the weekend that it was really long. Come Tuesday morning I kept wishing that it was still the weekend! *sigh*
In between the long working sessions, Vince and I got to head down to Santa Cruz for a spell. My first time at the Boardwalk! Out under the sun. Where we had some fun. The Boardwalk.
It was hot hot hot!!! The place was filled with beautiful colors!!! Although we didn't avail ourselves of the games or food, the booths were quite attractive.
And don't think that we were the only ones there! there were tons of people! Though it was quite tempting to go into the water given the heat, I was reminded that the water there was not as pristine as could be. And, given that I'm from CA and had the privilege of growing up in SoCal about 15 minutes away from the beach, I didn't think I was going to be missing anything.Our highlight of the day
came when we were hanging around some sea lion who were basking away in the sun on a small little floating dock. Most of the time they just relaxed. All hanging around, laying on top of each other. Soo cute! Some of them would stir and move around. There was a little baby one that was so close to the edge and kept getting almost pushed off. All in all, they would stay in their same position with eyes closed. Then... lo and behold! a pelican landed on the one edge of the dock! 
It was quite an alarming session and the sea lions did not really welcome the intrusion. As you can see, little baby sea lion is not quite oriented. Good thing there are plenty of adults around. and invaded their peaceful slumber! Well, the sea lions did not really like it. And when they were shooed off the dock by a man (booo!) this one showed us how she really felt about the pelican! 
She was just floating along, swimming around and then out of nowhere... Isn't this one of the most awesome pictures ever! Such natural action! Thanks and Great photography skills Vince!!
What a fun short day. I can see why people like the Boardwalk. It's out in the sun. It's fun. It's the Boardwalk. And I can't believe we actually heard and saw people eating this:Wednesday, September 05, 2007
SATC
On another note...this thought just popped into my mind... I actually am looking forward to the Sex and the City movie!! Not that i'll go watch it...maybe. But i'm very curious to know what the plot will be.
I have mixed feeling. Are they going to pick up right where they left off? that seems to boring. They are no longer "single" gals and definitely are a few years older. So i am quite curious. I hope the movie doesn't suck and then taint the feeling towards the series b/c I actually thought the series was well done and wrapped up quite nicely, and very happily.
Hmmm...we'll see...
On another note...this thought just popped into my mind... I actually am looking forward to the Sex and the City movie!! Not that i'll go watch it...maybe. But i'm very curious to know what the plot will be.
I have mixed feeling. Are they going to pick up right where they left off? that seems to boring. They are no longer "single" gals and definitely are a few years older. So i am quite curious. I hope the movie doesn't suck and then taint the feeling towards the series b/c I actually thought the series was well done and wrapped up quite nicely, and very happily.
Hmmm...we'll see...
I fail to understand...
Arrowhead doesn't get it! Our talk today, I thought, was quite productive. We got through the materials we needed to get through, albeit, I'm sure not in the great detail he wanted but certainly more to my liking. I have no problem giving guidance and doing some of the work when necessary. but it seemed like it was not necessary to do all of the work. In any event, I thought the conversation went well when I released some of his binds and said things like: you can do it, use your judgment, you create something and then send it to me to review.
THEN!! I can't believe it! I get an email on this very day saying: "Have situation A. Need you to help create, when next week can we discuss?"
ARGH! I suppose I am being ultra ineffective in my efforts. How can I say: "I cannot hand hold you" or "I cannot do your work for you" or "I cannot do your work with you" without seeming like i'm a crazy bitch or at the very least, non supportive. *sigh* i hope my response to that email can make him get it. all I want to say is "you do the work, you give it to me for review." how come he still thinks that he can "set up a meeting to discuss" when I have nothing to discuss because I have nothing to review and don't know what is going on?
I can only blame myself. I must not be a good communicator.
Arrowhead doesn't get it! Our talk today, I thought, was quite productive. We got through the materials we needed to get through, albeit, I'm sure not in the great detail he wanted but certainly more to my liking. I have no problem giving guidance and doing some of the work when necessary. but it seemed like it was not necessary to do all of the work. In any event, I thought the conversation went well when I released some of his binds and said things like: you can do it, use your judgment, you create something and then send it to me to review.
THEN!! I can't believe it! I get an email on this very day saying: "Have situation A. Need you to help create, when next week can we discuss?"
ARGH! I suppose I am being ultra ineffective in my efforts. How can I say: "I cannot hand hold you" or "I cannot do your work for you" or "I cannot do your work with you" without seeming like i'm a crazy bitch or at the very least, non supportive. *sigh* i hope my response to that email can make him get it. all I want to say is "you do the work, you give it to me for review." how come he still thinks that he can "set up a meeting to discuss" when I have nothing to discuss because I have nothing to review and don't know what is going on?
I can only blame myself. I must not be a good communicator.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Visits
How surprising! I got visits from two of my new best friends today! So unexpected. They just...popped in.
Facilities guy came to visit me today. He's very nice. Always carrying some sort of folder with papers and all. He has really only come by to visit me to give me an update as to what he is doing on a particular deal and then to give me a heads up as to what to expect. Pretty cool. I do appreciate that. I feel bad because I don't know his last name. :( I'll try to sneak a peak at his badge the next time he comes. Or all he has to do is email me. which he hasn't yet b/c he opts for the pop in.
IT guy came to visit me. I feared that I would be losing him as a BFF as the project he was supporting me on was nixed and is no more. But hope is revived!! He popped in and talked with me about nothing in particular. Except how his work went on a past project that had a similar fate to the one we were working on together. We will of course have to find other things to talk about after we've exhausted talking about our no longer live project. Also, my cube neighbor also on IT guy's BFF list, is leaving in a few weeks to go work somewhere else. :( I wonder if IT guy will come visit knowing that she is not here anymore. I did not have the heart to tell him that she was leaving. I hope he doesn't get mad when he finds out. :O He won't. IT guys is like Mr. Cool. Nothing seems to phase him.
corporate politics alert!! I will be trying to have a conversation with Arrowhead tomorrow about our working relationship. :S I hate feeling like I'm doing his work! But then again, the question is, am I? Or maybe it's more I wouldn't mind doing what I would do, maybe just after he tried to put in some effort. My example, I told him that he had choice 1 (yellow) or choice 2 (green) and that he would have to choose which one to use. In the end, he sends it back to me for my input while leaving both choices 1 or 2 to select and did not color them yellow or green. *sigh* not only did he not choose, he even seemed to forget that I made them yellow and green so that it could be easier to know what belonged to whatever he was supposed to choose.
I declined a meeting invite he sent. sad b/c it was just for me. I hope I wasn't too rude in my decline. But we have to work out a better relationship here. we'll see what happens! wish me luck!
How surprising! I got visits from two of my new best friends today! So unexpected. They just...popped in.
Facilities guy came to visit me today. He's very nice. Always carrying some sort of folder with papers and all. He has really only come by to visit me to give me an update as to what he is doing on a particular deal and then to give me a heads up as to what to expect. Pretty cool. I do appreciate that. I feel bad because I don't know his last name. :( I'll try to sneak a peak at his badge the next time he comes. Or all he has to do is email me. which he hasn't yet b/c he opts for the pop in.
IT guy came to visit me. I feared that I would be losing him as a BFF as the project he was supporting me on was nixed and is no more. But hope is revived!! He popped in and talked with me about nothing in particular. Except how his work went on a past project that had a similar fate to the one we were working on together. We will of course have to find other things to talk about after we've exhausted talking about our no longer live project. Also, my cube neighbor also on IT guy's BFF list, is leaving in a few weeks to go work somewhere else. :( I wonder if IT guy will come visit knowing that she is not here anymore. I did not have the heart to tell him that she was leaving. I hope he doesn't get mad when he finds out. :O He won't. IT guys is like Mr. Cool. Nothing seems to phase him.
corporate politics alert!! I will be trying to have a conversation with Arrowhead tomorrow about our working relationship. :S I hate feeling like I'm doing his work! But then again, the question is, am I? Or maybe it's more I wouldn't mind doing what I would do, maybe just after he tried to put in some effort. My example, I told him that he had choice 1 (yellow) or choice 2 (green) and that he would have to choose which one to use. In the end, he sends it back to me for my input while leaving both choices 1 or 2 to select and did not color them yellow or green. *sigh* not only did he not choose, he even seemed to forget that I made them yellow and green so that it could be easier to know what belonged to whatever he was supposed to choose.
I declined a meeting invite he sent. sad b/c it was just for me. I hope I wasn't too rude in my decline. But we have to work out a better relationship here. we'll see what happens! wish me luck!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Lunar Eclipse
Wow. I can't believe I stayed up for this. Okay. I didn't really stay up. I went to sleep at 11pm and woke up at 2:15am. Thereafter I got ready and went downstairs outside my apartment at got ready to take pictures. Granted, I wish I had a tripod and a bigger lens...but I am glad to have gotten to see the beauty and majesty of the lunar eclipse. Even it it happens quite a lot of times. But from what I read, not so common is the total eclipse. Enjoy!
1st shot at 2:40am
subsequent shot at 2:54am:
at 3:15am:
at 3:33am:
at 3:49am:
at 3:59am:
last shot at 4:02am:
although it would have been awesome to see the moon cycle back to full, I just had to go to sleep.
Wow. I can't believe I stayed up for this. Okay. I didn't really stay up. I went to sleep at 11pm and woke up at 2:15am. Thereafter I got ready and went downstairs outside my apartment at got ready to take pictures. Granted, I wish I had a tripod and a bigger lens...but I am glad to have gotten to see the beauty and majesty of the lunar eclipse. Even it it happens quite a lot of times. But from what I read, not so common is the total eclipse. Enjoy!
1st shot at 2:40am
subsequent shot at 2:54am:
at 3:15am:
at 3:33am:
at 3:49am:
at 3:59am:
last shot at 4:02am:
although it would have been awesome to see the moon cycle back to full, I just had to go to sleep.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Performance Goals
So I'm new to this concept. At my old workplace, there was no formal review period. no setting of goals. things were from the hip and it was alright with me.
Now, working for the Company, it's all about performance, goals and action items.
:)
This place I work is such a interesting social experiment for me! The newest thing to analyze...
Performance and goal setting!
What goals should I set for myself? Do I set low goals so it'll be certain that I can meet and exceed them? Will my manager know I'm low balling the goals and ding me for that? should I be aggressive and set lofty goals and bank on effort being seen rather than results? of course, in a perfect world, i'd set lofty goals and reach them!! but for now, i have no goals. for i joined the Company mid-review period and was told not to set back goals for the 2 months I was working.
will i get a raise? we'll see!!
oh...and the latest on Arrowhead...i met the nicest lady today that, from day 1, has had a terrible time working with Arrowhead. I can confirm now...that it really is him. I thought, maybe some of use are too critical and too bossy or whatever. but this lady was super nice. right off the bat. and for her to have a problem. *sigh*
So I'm new to this concept. At my old workplace, there was no formal review period. no setting of goals. things were from the hip and it was alright with me.
Now, working for the Company, it's all about performance, goals and action items.
:)
This place I work is such a interesting social experiment for me! The newest thing to analyze...
Performance and goal setting!
What goals should I set for myself? Do I set low goals so it'll be certain that I can meet and exceed them? Will my manager know I'm low balling the goals and ding me for that? should I be aggressive and set lofty goals and bank on effort being seen rather than results? of course, in a perfect world, i'd set lofty goals and reach them!! but for now, i have no goals. for i joined the Company mid-review period and was told not to set back goals for the 2 months I was working.
will i get a raise? we'll see!!
oh...and the latest on Arrowhead...i met the nicest lady today that, from day 1, has had a terrible time working with Arrowhead. I can confirm now...that it really is him. I thought, maybe some of use are too critical and too bossy or whatever. but this lady was super nice. right off the bat. and for her to have a problem. *sigh*
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Evaluations
So I'm now worried about the fate of Arrowhead. Apparently, he's been having some problems dealing with people in the past. It' snot that he's a terrible guy. But it seems that he not quite as effective as he should be and may in fact drag people down with him.
I never really thought about him and his work and its effect on others. but today, a colleague was doing an impromptu review and now i feel bad for him. he has all the best intentions. but for some reason, he cannot turn those intentions into product. my colleague asked me if he had given me some product that he created and worked on. and i can't say that he had. :( i'm racking my brain to think of the positives. not that he has that many negatives. it's just that they sort of overshadow his positives.
it's weird. not until today have i ever really thought about the work performance of someone that i work with. i hate that it's not a great impression. and now i'm worried about Arrowhead. I wish I could help him. i'll try to. i'd appreciate any ideas to help. Or maybe I shouldn't help. Maybe I should just let things happen as they may? oh...these are the days of my life...
So I'm now worried about the fate of Arrowhead. Apparently, he's been having some problems dealing with people in the past. It' snot that he's a terrible guy. But it seems that he not quite as effective as he should be and may in fact drag people down with him.
I never really thought about him and his work and its effect on others. but today, a colleague was doing an impromptu review and now i feel bad for him. he has all the best intentions. but for some reason, he cannot turn those intentions into product. my colleague asked me if he had given me some product that he created and worked on. and i can't say that he had. :( i'm racking my brain to think of the positives. not that he has that many negatives. it's just that they sort of overshadow his positives.
it's weird. not until today have i ever really thought about the work performance of someone that i work with. i hate that it's not a great impression. and now i'm worried about Arrowhead. I wish I could help him. i'll try to. i'd appreciate any ideas to help. Or maybe I shouldn't help. Maybe I should just let things happen as they may? oh...these are the days of my life...
Monday, August 13, 2007
New best friend #4
I can't believe I forgot about new best friend #4!! I'm going to call him Arrowhead, for he is deserving of name and I have a bottle of Arrowhead water on my desk and I can't think of anything else right now. You can feel free to suggest some new names as we get to know Arrowhead better.
Arrowhead calls me about 3 times a week and then sends me about 5-7 emails a day on average. Of course, they are not all to me only, but there I am. On all these emails. when sometimes, they don't even concern me. I do appreciate being kept in the loop, but i keep trying to find a way not to unnecessarily bombard someone's email, and I wish Arrowhead could do the same.
It's good though because at least the emails are all work related. It was funny one time as he called me one day, and I didn't pick up the phone. yes. i was screening. and then two seconds after the phone stopped ringing, I got an email that simply said:
"Are you there?"
I was. But to him I wasn't.
In any event, Arrowhead and I get along well. It's not that bad. mostly just funny. But sometimes, I think he just calls me so that he can tell me what he thinks and then sees if I think like he does and then get me on his side so he can turn it around to someone else and say that there is consensus for what he thinks. Okay, that didn't happen to me but to my colleague and so I'm wary of his motivation for calling. It's not as simple as just an exchange of information. Welcome to the world of corporate politics!
I like Arrowhead. Except for the times when i think he's trying to get me to do his work. me don't like that so much. We'll see what happens with Arrowhead. Maybe he'll chill out a little.
I can't believe I forgot about new best friend #4!! I'm going to call him Arrowhead, for he is deserving of name and I have a bottle of Arrowhead water on my desk and I can't think of anything else right now. You can feel free to suggest some new names as we get to know Arrowhead better.
Arrowhead calls me about 3 times a week and then sends me about 5-7 emails a day on average. Of course, they are not all to me only, but there I am. On all these emails. when sometimes, they don't even concern me. I do appreciate being kept in the loop, but i keep trying to find a way not to unnecessarily bombard someone's email, and I wish Arrowhead could do the same.
It's good though because at least the emails are all work related. It was funny one time as he called me one day, and I didn't pick up the phone. yes. i was screening. and then two seconds after the phone stopped ringing, I got an email that simply said:
"Are you there?"
I was. But to him I wasn't.
In any event, Arrowhead and I get along well. It's not that bad. mostly just funny. But sometimes, I think he just calls me so that he can tell me what he thinks and then sees if I think like he does and then get me on his side so he can turn it around to someone else and say that there is consensus for what he thinks. Okay, that didn't happen to me but to my colleague and so I'm wary of his motivation for calling. It's not as simple as just an exchange of information. Welcome to the world of corporate politics!
I like Arrowhead. Except for the times when i think he's trying to get me to do his work. me don't like that so much. We'll see what happens with Arrowhead. Maybe he'll chill out a little.
Friday, August 10, 2007
My New Best Friends
So in the past several weeks, I made a couple of new best friends. :)
#1 - IT guy - I have new best IT guy friend. he comes to visit me in my cube every so often for no reason at all. sometimes there is a reason. most of the time it is just to say hi. it's a little weird b/c we don't really have anything to talk about other than the project we are both on. But sadly, that project has now been scraped for the time being and I wonder if new best friend #1 will no longer visit me. hmmm...that might be alright. but it's always good to know someone in IT.
#2 - Facilities guy - I met this new best friend only last week and he has come to visit me twice and talk to me about our upcoming dealings with each other. It's cool. He's a little bit easier to talk to than best friend #1 (probably due to my lameness in the IT sector) but still...I don't really know what he's talking about. I do appreciate the heads up, though. And he's the type of guy I could see having a beer with. with a group of people of course.
#3 - Wikipedia - my bestest of all new best friends. Wiki has helped me understand what people say and write to me. I can't tell you how many acronyms have been thrown at me. I have come to rely a lot on Wiki for helping me speak a tiny bit intelligently. I see us having a long lasting relationship. no beers for me and Wiki though.
I do anticipate having more new best friends in the future. It's a big company.
So in the past several weeks, I made a couple of new best friends. :)
#1 - IT guy - I have new best IT guy friend. he comes to visit me in my cube every so often for no reason at all. sometimes there is a reason. most of the time it is just to say hi. it's a little weird b/c we don't really have anything to talk about other than the project we are both on. But sadly, that project has now been scraped for the time being and I wonder if new best friend #1 will no longer visit me. hmmm...that might be alright. but it's always good to know someone in IT.
#2 - Facilities guy - I met this new best friend only last week and he has come to visit me twice and talk to me about our upcoming dealings with each other. It's cool. He's a little bit easier to talk to than best friend #1 (probably due to my lameness in the IT sector) but still...I don't really know what he's talking about. I do appreciate the heads up, though. And he's the type of guy I could see having a beer with. with a group of people of course.
#3 - Wikipedia - my bestest of all new best friends. Wiki has helped me understand what people say and write to me. I can't tell you how many acronyms have been thrown at me. I have come to rely a lot on Wiki for helping me speak a tiny bit intelligently. I see us having a long lasting relationship. no beers for me and Wiki though.
I do anticipate having more new best friends in the future. It's a big company.
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